Do you ever doubt God? Do you ever doubt He exists or that your faith is genuine? Do you ever wonder if you're wrong about your core beliefs?
I read a great quote recently that set my mind at ease. See if you agree.
"Whether your faith is that there is a God or that there is not a God, if you don't have doubts, you are either kidding yourself or asleep. Doubts are the ants in the pants of faith. They keep it awake and moving." Fredrick Buechner, Wishful Thinking.
Ants in the pants of faith -- don't you just love it? Nobody likes ants in the pants; they're uncomfortable and annoying and painful. You just want them gone, so you look for the source -- where did they come from? Did you step in some giant ant bed without knowing it? Maybe you need to move to better footing.
Ants in the pants are like our doubts about God. Our doubts make us uncomfortable and annoyed and can cause us pain. We want them gone! But, just like ants in the pants, our doubts do keep us moving and alert and thinking and moving. They cause us to look for the source and see what caused us to doubt.
What was it?
- some kind of pain
- an unmet expectation
- an unanswered prayer
- a tough intellectual questions
- a slow fade from intimacy with God
God exists. He cares. We can't totally understand Him, but He totally understands us. And He's big enough to handle all our doubts -- our ants in the pants of faith. On the other side of the doubts we can find a firm place to stand.